Friday, September 7, 2012

Four Week Update

So, um, four weeks, huh?

Damn.

You'd think it'Id feel like a long time, since all I've really been doing is sitting around the house, but no. I can't believe it's been just under a month.

First, I'm going to bitch for a sec, 'cause I got to get this off my chest. Being out of work when you live paycheck-to-paycheck really effing sucks. I have NO income coming in. Zip. Zero. Zilch. Nada. I've been approved for short term disability, which is supposed to provide a percentage of my income, but they've been dragging their damn heels in cutting me a check. I found out today that they mailed it on the 4th. It's still not here, probably won't get here until next week. And the bills are fricking due. The angry 'your bill is LATE you evil person you!" people are calling already.

I'm frustrated. I'm upset. I'm stressing. I'm angry. I CAN'T go back to work. Believe me, I would if I could. I can't pay these people because I don't HAVE the money. They can threaten me with collections all they want, and I can show them my empty bank account. But they still won't stop calling me. I'm stuck, broke, until that disability check comes in, or until I can go back to work. Which, considering I'm only able to type this by closing one eye so I can see a single computer screen is probably not happening soon.

This isn't a plea for money, or for help, so please don't think I'm asking for a handout. This is just the reality of the situation when you have a serious injury in America and companies can drag their heels as long as they want to keep from paying out what they should.

Also, the first person to bitch about disability payments being for freeloaders, lazy asses, or people working the system will get unloaded on. Because I'm in THAT kind of a mood.

Uh, yeah. Back to regularly scheduled update blog and all...

I started rehabilitation yesterday. Vestibular Therapy to be exact. It's mainly brain therapy, teaching my brain and body how to orient itself in space again so that I'm not dizzy and I have some sense of balance. Which would be nice, because I'm really, REALLY tired of stumbling, wobbling, and flat-out falling all over the place. The therapist seems nice, and I'll be going twice a week, plus I have a packet of exercises I'm going to be doing at home.

Vision-wise, I'm having good days and bad days. It's crazy. Some days, I wake up and it's great, I can even see pretty decently for awhile before it slips. Other days, nothing works right, I can't focus, and the double images keep sliding around in front of my eyes.

Balance-wise, again, I have good days and bad days. I guess it's all a part of the healing process, right? Two steps forward, one step back? (Or, in my case, stumbles forward, shuffles back?)

I want to get back to my life so badly it's not even funny. August is gone, and I missed the last gasp of summer. I missed the huge Labor Day, Last Camping of the Season trip. I'm missing The Fair. I'm missing The Mystery Wine Walk. September is in full swing, and I can't partake. I miss being able to walk to a friend's place up the street and gossiping over wine, or going to the dog park with my friends.

Most people know that I'm a geeky chick, and I play rpgs and games both on consoles and online. I miss the gaming a bit, but I really miss the comraderie and the family of my gamer crew. I'm blessed to play with people I've known/played with for YEARS, and we really are like family. I miss being able to jump into a game at the end of a long day and catching up.

Gods, I even miss going to work.

Yeah, someone remind me I said that a few months from now when we're in the holiday rush, okay?

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