Release & Revive

I never talked about my New Year's Resolution. I mean, I posted that cute graphic about kicking ass this year, and it's true, that's on my list of things to do.

I could make a list of all the things I want to do; lose weight, pay off debt, de-clutter my house, get a promotion... but in the end, I'm probably not going to check very many of these things off my list, and then I'll be here, next January feeling utterly horrible about the things that I'd failed at. Instead, I've decided to assign myself a theme for the year, and strive to fulfill it every day, to the best of my ability. My theme for 2012 is going to be:

Release & Revive

re·lease 

tr.v. re·leased, re·leas·ing, re·leas·es

1. To set free from confinement, restraint, or bondage: released the prisoners.

2. To free from something that binds, fastens, or holds back; let go: released the balloons; released a flood of questions.

re·vive 

v. re·vived, re·viv·ing, re·vives

v.tr.

1. To bring back to life or consciousness; resuscitate.

2. To impart new health, vigor, or spirit to.

I will release those thing I keep holding onto that are holding me back.  I will release myself from expectations; both from myself and from other people. I will release that little voice in my head that constantly tells me that I'm not good enough, pretty enough, or thin enough to be valued by anyone. I will release the resentment, and the grudges I've been carrying for far too long. I will release myself from the idea I had from childhood, the one everyone has about where they will be and what they will be doing at 30+, and I will allow myself to be content with where I am. 


I will revive my health, both mentally, physically, and spiritually. I will revive the passion for life that I once had. I will revive the things that I've let slip because they didn't fit the 'plan' for my life. I will revive my ability to love and be loved. I will revive my appreciation for the wonder of the world all around me, and I will revive my hopeful (yet cautious) optimism of the future to come. 


Every day I will struggle, but every day I will remind myself of my goals, and hopefully, I'll take one step further down the road to a more peaceful, healthier, happier, fulfilled self.